Location: Seaside Heights, NJ
Weather: Sunny, 82 degrees and windy as a mother (but no clouds whatsoever)
In time-honored tradition, I decided to make the trek to the shore, as only Jersey-speak can lay claim to. This was to be in honor of, well, me, celebrating the anniversary of my entry into this particular physical plane.
But let's rewind the cassette a bit, shall we? At 12:10 on the morning of, I cast forth into the universe these 3 things: 1- my new website, 2- the 1st single from my new album, 3- the announcement of my birthday, all happening concurrently. Yes, the ol' hat trick! Never have I regarded me or my art in such high esteem. See, my past is sordid at best, but, alas, we're not there, we're here and all roads converge here, literally and spiritually, as evidenced by the above testimony. So, here is where I'll place my focus.
Exciting as all this is, it proved to be just the advent of a star-studded day, replete with many cameo appearances; winding through many emotional peaks, most of which I'll dub as gratitude, elation, love, grace and spirit. With a soundtrack of summer-themed songs fizzing out of my crackling speakers and blasting me through time and space, I proceeded southbound. But I'll spare you of all the fragments of the day which only I'll find interesting. Rather, here's the cliff notes:
- Woke to some heart-tugging FB/email birthday blessings, some of which contained some very positive and encouraging feedback regarding the new single, Let's Do It Again.
- Met a waitstaff at a corner grub joint (Nancy) who originally hailed from the Bronx (yo!). Hence, we engaged in some Bronx-speak (yo!).
- Gifts I so humbly, proudly and graciously accepted: an uplifting video of universal themes to begin the day (props to Meira!), calls from my brethren and sistren Electric Friends as well as my new homies (Mom included) at the Center (including a rousing rendition of HB, as only seniors can sing!), all containing the sheer beauty of the spoken word of love and appreciation.
- Even procured a free drink at Sbux!
But the greatest of these today arrived in the form of the spiritual equivalent of a house call from my dad. You see, my dad passed from this life a little over 5 years ago and though I have forgiven myself and made peace with him in the process, our relationship wasn't without strain most times.
But today, and possibly for the 1st time since his passing, he came to visit, fully; that is, his core presence was wholey felt, as if he were riding shotgun or better yet, tandem, as I was on my bike. No words were exchanged - for they were unneccesary. I understood fully the reason for his visit and I accepted, with a brimming heart at first, and then, with grace. In short, it was clear that he was there to witness me as I now witness myself - through the eyes of Source, with all the love, support, respect, acknowledgment and pride thereof. Truly, this was a first in our relationship and as he saw me, I saw myself, and vice versa. I felt complete, knowing I was in good company, finally.
Mind-blowing, to say the least.
Last, it is neither my intention nor motive to compare and contrast (though I realize it is by virtue of contrast's presence which enables us to more clearly see our best), but the light with which I coursed through my day today (and lately, on the whole) was a fresh experience for me and as a result, I feel the dawning of a shift - from standing in the hallway to the opening of a multitude of doors ahead.
Indeed, it was red-letter birthday, possibly the greatest.